What crazy thing will be your demise?

A bolt of lightning with your name on it

... (why?)

Because it landed you in the mental institution

'What crazy thing will be your demise?' at QuizGalaxy.com

It's funny, but not Ha Ha funny.

Why do I feel self conscious about giving this url to people I know, when it is already posted on the internet, and available to pretty much everyone? Is it the vulnerability; is it the loss of privacy?

I was going to write that I am not sure what has been up with my mood lately. I've not been very energetic, and I've been sort of living in my head. I do that at the best of times really, but this is different. Perhaps it is Mid-Winter Blahs setting in. Do you think we forget how it felt the year before in order to allow the Blahs to affect us more when they visit again? Something to ponder...

I came across a line that I enjoy - What would Jesus forget?
Perhaps he got the Blahs too.

Things have been bothering me. My relationship, lack thereof, or mess therein. Hard to say where to categorize that. Money. That definately falls into the lack thereof pile. My job. The mess therein pile. The disaster therein. Where is that winning lotto ticket when you NEED it? Some people at work are very close to being told - (Thank you SB and Ariia for this one) - Why don't you go and play a nice game of Hide and Go Fuck Yourself?

Thrown into the whole Blah thing is the fact that I was very sick over the weekend. However that doesn't mentally translate into an excuse to have avoided the gym until this point. And here, we have another reason why I'm blah. It might have to do with the recent birthday, but perhaps not. I'm bothered more by the body I see in the mirror. I don't want my pants spilling over, or the Mushroom Cloud effect anymore; not that I never did. The problem with the Blahs is that you don't want to go the Gym, therefore feeling guilty about that. How is it that you don't have the energy to do anything, but have the energy to feel guilty? Then, you look yourself in the mirror, and feel worse. Thus, the cycle completes and continues.

Hmmm...Perhaps a personal trainer for a week or three, somewhere on Hawaii. Bathing suits not required...

That would help. I'm willing to give it a try. :)

I wonder if I screwed up?

Maybe I'm in a mood because I am home sick. Maybe I'm in a mood because my job seems to be going no where, but fast. Maybe I'm in a mood because my ex boyfriend has a wonderful sounding new boyfriend, and I am a bit jealous. Maybe I am just home alone, with my regrets.

The house seems full.